Tonight, of all nights..

Well tonight was.. tonight just was.

Tonight was the best night I have had in a while. Not the best night ever, because that would be like comparing an apple and an orange.

Ok then put it this way:
It was one of the best nights I have ever had.
:)

I was actually quite looking forward to it but dreading it at the same time.
I mean, what if BB didn’t like my friends?
What if he didn’t get along with them or the guys?
What if I said something stupid, or it was awkward between us the whole night?
I admit, I was so scared about it going wrong that I didn’t even blog about it (and that’s unusual!).

But it went so smoothly I was almost in shock the whole night!
Everyone seemed to get along so well, it was like we were an old group of friends just going out for the night. Very surprisingly, it was not awkward between me and BB in the slightest, which was such a relief and quite exciting as well, I mean, think of all the possibilities..?! anyway I shouldn’t get my hopes up too much.

But we seemed to have a connection, an understanding, a special sort of friendship, maybe because, at the start, he only knew me. But anyway.

One thing that I want to bring up is how he says my name.

I have thought about this before, at Mount Beauty, when I heard Ruairidh say my name, when he introduced us to some new locals, in the tv room, on the couch. I knew then that there was something special there..
There are a lot of things in a name. You associate so many things with just a simple name, so naturally, how you say that name becomes significant because when you speak it, in your head you are thinking, simultaneously, about all the things associated with that single word. How you feel about that name, what it looks like, how you perceive it, your opinions on it. If you listen really closely when someone says a name, you can decipher everything that that person thinks about the name that they said.

I heard once that if someone says your name a lot while they talk to you, then they like you.

I sure hope that’s true!

Hahaha I sound so desperate but this blog is supposed to be a place where I don’t hide my true feelings so here they are, for the world to read.

So anyway, I was sort of listening to how BB says my name.. maybe there is something there? He certainly says it a lot more that what is really necessary! Maybe be likes the sound of it on his tongue.. he also likes nudging me..
But see I cant seem to decipher his actions! To me he seems so practiced in the area of how to behave around girls that this could be just how he treats all of them. But he still makes me feel special, like im the only one who matters to him. I like that. I wish he could be mine.

Im glad that Topaz, and im sure the others as well, approved of him. Personally im thinking how could they not? but then again, my opinion is biased, so as not to be counted.

All in all, tonight was an abosultely EXCELLENT night, and I now, more than ever,
CANNOT WAIT TILL SEMI!
But mostly the semi-post.
Tis going to be fun!
(p.s. errands-garnet, I hope that brad is invited to the post cuz I think hes looking forward to it.. sorry!)

p.p.s. sorry about my last post.. I kinda broke down crying half way through writing it and it didn’t really make sense in the first place.. it didn’t have the effect I was hoping for! OH WELL!