I actually wrote this blog last wednesday, but i have decided to post it because i think that some things just need to be said. Thus the title of my blog lol. And also, as i have stated before, i am a big believer in acknowledging things in order to get over them.
So enjoy my wednesday night rant!
What goes up, must come down.
Unfortunately.
I am incredibly grateful for Saturday night, but did it really have to come back and get worse?
I do know that you cant just keep going up, everything just keep getting better because life just doesn’t work that way. So I knew that I would have to have small bad things happen to me after Saturday night so that everything can even out in the end.
I suppose that what I didn’t realise was that for everything to even out I had to come right back down, really, really far down, so that everything works out in the end. I suppose you could use the Hindu term of karma, making sure that everything is neutral.
So it started late on Monday night.
Well actually it kinda started on Monday morning when I got locked out of my homeroom and then went to the office and backchatted the principal.. luckily she didn’t take it to heart and I didn’t get in trouble. Then I also kinda snapped at the bus driver too.. now I feel horrible for doing so but at the time it seemed necessary. So I'm sorry Mrs Tuite and unknown bus driver.
Monday night I actually had a good shift at work, quite entertaining, and I talked to Judi and Naomi more than I ever had before just about anything really. We hadn’t really talked before much, me being shy, so the only things that I had really said to them was work related. “Is there anything for me to do?” being the main thing ive said to them.
So I came home from work in a good mood, had dinner and came on the computer to do homework.
And thats where the problems started.
See, I really needed to do my English (even tho I wouldn’t admit that to my mother) but I just couldn’t go on the computer without talking to BB on msn.. so I went on msn and got caught, had a big argument with mum, didn’t do my English, and ended up just sitting on the computer until 11:00pm just to defy mum because im too stubborn for my own good. And to top everything off that night, because I was all fired up I didn’t get to sleep until 11:45pm.
The next day wasn’t looking so great already.
Woke up half an hour later than what I should have, just managed to get to the bus stop on time, dropped my brand new ipod, lost my phone sock, forgot about the chemistry excursion, didn’t wear my sports uniform, was late to homeroom and had to get ANOTHER fucking late slip, embarrassed myself in front of the entire Japanese class having an exam because I’m just too damn loud, DIDNT fall in the creek (one of the only pluses of the whole day) got home, attempted to finish my English but got sidetracked by a certain BB who wasn’t actually paying any attention to me at all because he took five hours to reply to anything I said, embarrassed myself a few times with him, almost let it slip that I liked him a few times, still didn’t finish my English, only just didn’t get caught being on msn while supposed to be doing homework, rudely left BB because mum was coming, still didn’t finish that damn English, the computer pissed me off quite a few times, finally got around to crappily finishing my English powerpoint, didn’t even read it through and it was due the next day, was on the computer until 11:30pm again, was feeling depressed no thanks to BB, went out onto the roof eating chocolate to make me feel better (it didn’t work) and went to sleep about 12:15pm.
Not the best day of my life.
Today was much the same, because I was still feeling depressed from BB (geeze I hate you, I really do, you play with my emotions too much boy, and one day im just gonna snap) got to homeroom late by ONE FRIGGAN MINUTE so fucking Mr Hutchinson locked the fucking door in my face SO I HAD TO GET ANOTHER FUCKING LATE SLIP! I WASNT EVEN LATE FOR GOD’S SAKE! Then one good thing happened – I got my nike+ running chip. So I went for a 3km run, was good and happy during that run and felt good about myself.. got home and the friggan thing said that I had only run 0.96km in 15 minutes. Snapped at every person in my family during dinner because I was having a bad day then ended up breaking down in tears in front of them because nothing was going right.
In conclusion, Saturday night was so unbelievably amazing, but I payed for it by having the next few days just not going right. But if I was truthful, I would pay that price every day for the wonderfully amazing time I had on Saturday night. So thank-you God, for giving me that incredible dinner.. that included Brad’s four flavoured “ice-cream” that was fury, him hitting on Ryan and then doing stuff with me while flirting with Kristy, and the massive eight-person orgy that we had on the table, which the fat waitress lady joined in with.
p.s. just for the record, I think I have finally served my time in the bad day room, because after Wednesday things got better, perhaps because on Thursday I went to the ekka.. I don’t much like the ekka but looking at the artworks and horses and cows and stuff was really fun, not to mention going on the chairlift for free. So once again, thank-you God for making it all even out in the end.
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