Mark Time

Recently I received my report card.

I must admit that it was a bit of a disappointment, especially considering my results last year at the end of grade ten.

But because I had previously received my marks from my last exams in class I expected the results that I got.

But this didn’t make them any less disappointing.

I know that I had a bad first term, what with everything happening on top of the fact that it was hard enough stepping up the BIG jump that is between grade ten and grade eleven. So I pretty much screwed that term up, by my standards. But I do think that second term wasn’t really much better, in retrospect. I still managed to obtain a smaller yes but still existent accumulation of c+’s . I know that some people say that a c+ isn’t that bad but see the thing is that for me it is bad. And in term two I managed to gain just one. But see the thing is, this c- actually, was also accompanied by a d+ which is even worse. And to top it all off, it was for chemistry. I suppose it would have been ok to get it for anything else but just not a science. Seeing as I do three science/maths subjects that would leave English, maths or drama. And you know, I have thought about it so hard, having been now placed in the situation, and I have tried and tried to decide on one subject that, if I had to screw up, I would screw up that one. But see the thing is that I cant decide on one subject to fail. I’m just too competitive and even SOR which really doesn’t matter, still matters because I cant stand seeing a mark that is below a b+.

I have a problem though.
When I am actually doing the assignment, sometimes, I forget what it feels like to receive anything lower than a b+ and so I become lazy and don’t complete the assignment or study as hard because sometimes I feel I have better things to do. No, not better things to do, just more fun things to do.

Hopefully though, this last semester taught me my lesson.

I am terribly embarrassed by the overall marks of some of my subjects on my report card.
I am particularly embarrassed to admit them to my three best friends, who are the most likely ones to read this.
Which is why I am now going to write what the overall marks for all of my subjects, so that the three people who I don’t want to tell can know and I can also say to them I will never again have to be embarrassed by my marks.

Maths – B+
English – B+
SOR – B+
Physics – A- (I would just like to point out that I am third in the ranking in the grade.. im quite proud of that mark!)
Chemistry – C+
Drama – C+

Those two last marks will never happen. Needless to say, those last two marks are my most embarrassing, particularly the second last. But I still shouldn’t be getting b+ because I know that I could do so much better. Im almost sure that if I did even 15 more minutes a day of homework then I would be at the VHA range. Its ridiculous because thats what all my teachers seemed to think in my interviews.

So what im saying now is that this semester I am going to do better and work harder and get better marks in all my subjects. And my reward at the end will be a lovely school award, something which I have never gotten but always wanted to get.

I will do this, and I will try harder, because I KNOW that I can.