I'm actually coming back!

omg can u believe it?! i am actually coming back on to write another blog!

hmmm now what to write about?
well today i went shopping. and spent a fair bit of money. at supre. :S
that isnt so good. but what i bought was good! i will where it to the city on monday :)

i seem to be going a lot of places these holidays. i think they will end up going fast :( that sucks because that means that i will hav to go back to school again more quickly. back to study study study. hrrumpph. i kinda like school but i dont. i used to like school quite a lot, it was always fun to see your friends of course and learning stuff was great too. i never had a whole heap of homework, i could always cope with it. but going into grade 11 that kinda changed. i knew that it would be harder than grade 10 now that it really really counted towards something (even though it still doesnt but the thing is that it COULD) and so i wasnt looking forward to it that much. and it seemed like i was totally right! it didnt help that i had other things to think about but more on that later. its kinda scary when you know that you could be doing so much better at school work and yet you dont care? i was actually originally quite proud of myself at first because i never really got out of the school thinking habit over the christmas holidays. but then stuff happened that made it a lot harder to be concerned about school work. maybe its a stage that all teenagers go through. If it is it sucks. I really do hate not caring. But what I hate even more is that you just cant be bothered to care because there are so many “more important” things to think about. And the thing is that those “important things” are actually not important at all. Just the stuff like boys and friends and looking good and being “cool” and going to Chermside and texting people and going on msn and myspace and.. there are so many stupid insignificant things that we worry about that don’t make the slightest difference the moment we leave high school. Thats what I hate about teenagers – they live in the right here, right now and the really stupid ones don’t give a rats arse about stuff even in a few months time. Maybe thats why they count how long theyve been going out with their bf in months or hav phone plans that only last for 30days. Teenagers are so stupid and frustrating. I talk like im not one, but sometimes I look at them and think “You are so immature and childish.” And it frustrates me! But then sometimes I sit back at myself and think “hang on your acting childish now too!” but I cant tell if its just the people im around of whether I actually act like that..
I think im getting better now that the other stuff isn’t bothering me so much anymore (although it has changed me quite a bit and that affects me now) and I can concentrate more on my school work. But I do know that I didn’t do as well as I could hav this term and I feel incredibly guilty at that. I hav done hardly any flute practice, in fact I could be doing some right now! Arrrgghh I will later.. see thats what I always say! And it seems like I don’t care –

And thats where the computer shut down and here begun another argument with mum about the computer.
AGAIN.