The 27 Things I Learnt Today

I learnt a number of things today.
What I mean is I learnt more things than I usually do. Well I at least remembered the things this time.

So.
1. I learnt that sometimes bad news hits you hard, especially when you least expect it.
2. I learnt that sometimes you feel like you can’t cope with the bad news, that it will suffocate you.
3. I learnt that I had been hoping for something for a long time.
4. I learnt that telling myself not to hope made me sub-consciously hope even more.
5. I learnt that I knew all along that this was going to happen.
6. I learnt that after being told it had happened, I could so quickly spiral down into unhappiness, despite my best efforts not to.
7. I learnt that something can stay at the forefront of my mind for endless hours, and even leave my brain half awake while I am sleeping, to worry about it.
8. I learnt that I would once again blame myself.
9. I learnt that I am incredibly selfish and will not try to act happier around people, so as to save them pain as well.
10. I learnt that if I have a worry on my mind, I will think much clearer, I will do more work in class and not be distracted easily.
11. I learnt that I will get worked up about something rather unimportant in the light of everything else, something so uniportant I wont even tell my best friends because, to be honest, I'm slightly embarressed by it, me making a huge big deal about something so small and something that I'm taking for granted, something like one boy, one lovely, perfect boy.. NO. He may be perfect, but he may not be for me..
12. I learnt that I will do anything to prove myself to someone, even if it’s a fruitless attempt.
13. I learnt that I will do this sub-consciously.
14. I learnt that happiness is so much easier to maintain than sadness is.
15. I learnt that I can only be unhappy for so long; after than my happiness seems to catch up to me and I get a MASSIVE high, where I am literally bouncing off the walls.
16. I learnt that once I don’t have my friends to distract me anymore I will go back into misery-mode.
17. I learnt that (surprisingly) going to work was able to clear my mind and not make me bitter about what had happened.
18. I learnt that giving someone a smile, even if it’s not real, will make you, and them, actually smile for real and be happier.
19. I learnt that packet liquorice can be “fresh”. (as opposed to packed liquorice that is not fresh..? if it isn’t fresh (past the use by date) then it shouldn’t be being sold!)
20. I learnt that I love some people more than I thought or realised that I did.
21. I learnt that I need to remind myself to be positive, and that I should.
22. I learnt that I need to practice more for my choir audition! :S
23. I learnt that I miss a friendship.
24. I learnt that, this time, I have the power to be friends with her again and that will use this to my advantage (i.e. be friends with her again :P)
25. I learnt that “I need somebody to lo-ove, I – need somebody to lo-ove!”
26. I learnt that things are never as they seem.
27. I learnt that I should always have hope.

I have hope in this.
Please don’t let me be disappointed.
Please.

p.s. does anyone else think its a little.. disturbing that none of the things I learnt today were from my schoolwork and will help me get a good OP..

OH WELL.