It's over.

I never want to confront that again.

It’s over and done.
All is not well, but it’s as close as I expect it to be, and im happy at how it is at the moment.

Now that I have written about everything, I want to put it all behind and start afresh. A new beginning, a new start, with nothing in the past holding us back.

When I reflect back on everything, I realise how bad it really was. But at the time, I just kept telling myself it will get better, it could be much worse. I realise that this in fact made it worse, me not acknowledging it, but even with hindsight I know that I could have never confronted the problem.

I am just a non-confrontational person. And the bigger people see me as being weaker, and so take advantage of me.

I know that people take advantage of me.
I know that they see my kinder nature and use that to their advantage.
I would just rather them do that, if it’s not hurting me that much, that confront them and hurt them, even though sometimes they are hurting me so much.

I hope, I pray with all my heart dear God, that neither I nor anyone else has to go through what I did again.

Thank you God for listening to my prayers and answering them, making it all better. Thank you, thank you, thank you.