I am a person for others.
I don’t think you realise how many fucking times I have put others before myself. You know that if it came down to you or me, of course I would always choose to make you happy before myself. It’s just who I am. If I was being perfectly honest, something that I rarely am when it comes to these things, I don’t think that I know another person who thinks of others before themselves as much as I do. I always do it. Sometimes I don’t want to. Sometimes I can’t help it. Sometimes it’s the only thing I want to do.
And yet every time that I truly, truly want to put others before myself,
I’m told I'm just not good enough.
Maybe I’ll just stop trying.
Maybe I’ll just become another self-centred, disgusting little brat that only thinks about myself, just like so many other people in this world.
Maybe I’ll just give up all together.
Because trying to do my best only seems to end up leaving me hurt and disappointed.
And I guess it’s just not worth it.
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