Dear, Friend

You know you’re a silly girl. Of course you’re not doing badly. Far from it. I think you’re problem is that you compare yourself to everyone else. Whether you believe you have done well or not is based upon how you have done compared to everyone else. But you really shouldn’t do that. Why do you compare yourself to everyone else? You are you, you can’t be anyone else. So what you get is your result, not anyone else’s. I know that you only see those people above you. The ones who are better than you. Why do you do that? Yes, it does get you to try and work harder. But I also know that sometimes it gets you down, disheartens you. You tell me it’s because you can’t be as good as them. That you try so hard to be as good as them. And I know you do. I can see that. But sometimes you just don’t get as good as them. To be honest, even if you can’t see it yourself, I can see that you hate people being better than you. Which is good in a way, it gets you to try your hardest. But sometimes you need to see that it is ok if people are better than you. You needn’t waste tears and happiness over it. Because you can’t be them. And they can’t be you. You are better than them at other things.

Think of me when you’re out,
When you’re out there.

Who do you try for? Yourself, you answer. Well I know that not to be true. When it comes down to it, you aren’t really trying for yourself. You are trying for your parents. You are trying for your friends. You are trying for your teachers. You are trying for your family. But what about trying for yourself? You try for these people because you believe that they expect you to do well. But I know that they don’t expect anything of the sort from you. All they want is for you to be happy. Are you happy? No. Because you are constantly trying to please them, and when you fail you feel like you have let them down. You feel like you haven’t lived up to what they want you to be. And you feel guilty, you feel like you haven’t tried hard enough. You lose your confidence, you feel like giving up. But what you don’t realise is that nobody expects anything from you. You must remember that. That doesn’t mean that you can stop putting in effort. It just means that you should be proud of yourself, whatever you get, because it was your best. Not anyone else’s.

I’m begging nice from my knees.

You say to me But what if my best isn’t good enough? Good enough for who? Or what? I know what you want to do, and I also happen to know that you are good enough for that. You don’t necessarily need to be good at anything in particular for that. You just need to have determination. You need to be able to follow things through and stick with anything that you start. And you do do that. I can see that. So stop worrying. Of course you will be what you want to.

And when the world
treats you way too fairly.

I’ve noticed that you don’t see the people who you are better than. And there are so many of them. But you are too busy focussing on the ones who you aren’t better than. Slow down, just stop and see those who you are better than. You really are focussing on the minority when you only see those who are better than you. Seriously, if you could see what I saw, those who you beat by a million miles, then perhaps you wouldn’t get so down sometimes.

Well it’s a shame I’m a dream.

I’ve seen you deny compliments. Compliments which I believe are true, and which clearly the giver believes is true too. Why is that? You don’t want people to make false impressions of you. You don’t want them to have expectations of you which you believe you cannot fulfil all the time. You don’t want to let them down when you are not what they are saying you are. Don’t worry about that. Let yourself believe that you are actually good at something, instead of not believe someone when they tell you that you are. You really are good at so many things. Remember those things.

All I wanted

Please, please don’t get down. In all honesty, it doesn’t matter. Your focus is narrow, you can’t see what else is out there. You don’t need anyone else; you have proved that time and time again. Perhaps you even don’t want anyone else. Be confident. Of course you will do well. Perhaps not amazing because not everyone can be amazing. But you will do well. And that’s all anyone can ask for. That’s all you can ask of yourself. Too much pressure on yourself doesn’t do well with you. Haven’t you noticed? Perhaps lots of pressure makes some people perform harder, be better. But not you. You need pressure, certainly, but not the amount you are placing on yourself. Because it’s breaking you. And I can’t, can’t let you break because if you break then so do I. Nobody expects anything of you. Your best is all you can give.


Was You.

Oh sweet painted lady,
Seems it’s always been the same.
Getting paid, for being laid,
Well I guess that’s the name of the game,
oooh